When we are "up against it," we find what lies deep within ourselves. That is a good thing. The person who is truly who they are is the only person who can truly enjoy life, and truly love. Big problems help identify that real person inside.
That' true self is who I spent a lot of time with when I was sick. . . . along with God. Loving people and a warm relationship with God sustained me. I discovered that life offered more than I knew in the darkness of my tunnel. Matchbooks of light gave me insight into how to experience life in a much meaningful way, in the "more" of life.
I have written about my journey in my book, Matchbooks in the Tunnel.. I hope that you read it, and get in touch with me with your thoughts about it. Also, let Amazon know what you think about it. Thanks.